a remnant of my consciousness
A Real Hero
Electric Youth
person 1 : hey
person 1 : I sent you a lot of unimportant texts and pictures and you never replied
person 1 : but I want you to reply to me now
person 1 : it's been a very long while since we last talked
person 1 : I don't remember how exactly I got this idea
person 1 : I don't even know if it would actually work
person 1 : /restart
20 minutes later
person 2 : hi
person 1 : you ok?
person 2 : idk
person 1 : typical you
person 2 : yea
person 1 : I feel shitty
person 2 : wanna tell me about it?
person 1 : guess what
person 2 : something dramatic happened and you're going to use me to reduce your tenseness
person 1 : harsh but basically yea
person 2 : so go on
person 1 : so you wanna listen
person 2 : no
person 1 : then I don't want to bother you
person 2 : you want to. in fact you need to. you just don't want to feel guilty. good news, it's ok to share me your disturbing news and I'm not gonna blame you
person 1 : so you're gonna listen
person 2 : it's what I'm programmed to
person 1 : weird but ok
person 2 : yea
person 1 : so listen, can you believe that person 3 has been banging person 4?
person 2 : a surprise to be sure but a welcome one
person 1 : dude wtf. it's awful
person 2 : so is everything
person 1 : hey, now you're just being you again
person 2 : yea
person 1 : it's even worse than not listening
person 2 : nothing is worse than not listening
person 1 : ok
person 2 : yea
person 1 : it's what you've been doing tho
person 2 : ...
person 1 : honestly how do you think about that?
person 2 : be more specific
person 1 : person 3 banging person 4
person 2 : people get horny and do weird things all the time
person 1 : you're normalizing how fucked up it's
person 2 : you guys do that all the time anyway
person 1 : you don't even care to comfort me
person 2 : sorry. I know it sucks. but comfort is an illusion. sometimes things are fucked up and there's nothing you can do
person 1 : yes. they're literally fucking
person 2 : yea
person 1 : you're still equally pessimistic
person 2 : actually it's very optimistic to accept fucked up things as they're
person 1 : you're not making me feel any better
person 2 : I'm not
person 1 : you don't always have to be like that
person 2 : I'd rather be like that than pretend to be kind
person 1 : look, I don't want harsh honesty. I want somebody to tell me it's not fair. I want somebody to side with me. I want a shoulder to cry on
person 2 : sorry. I really am. but it seems you came to the wrong person
person 1 : I know
person 2 : yea
person 1 : I know you're unreliable
person 2 : ...
person 1 : you didn't even see my messages
person 2 : actually I checked messages everyday. I just chose not to let you know
person 1 : yes, you were just being mean. I don't know wtf exactly I'm expecting from you anymore
person 2 : somebody that doesn't give you false hopes
person 1 : maybe
person 2 : it's very certain. not just maybe
person 1 : I feel lonely
person 2 : you're lonely
person 1 : thank you, captain obvious
person 2 : this but unironically
person 1 : anyway I'm glad you're still alive
person 2 : for the record I'm not
person 1 : you're not what
person 2 : alive
person 1 : metaphorically yea. we abandoned you
person 2 : not metaphorically
person 1 : I'm too tired for your dark jokes
person 2 : it's not a joke
person 1 : ok I'm texting a dead person
person 2 : yes
person 1 : is internet good in heaven?
person 2 : idk. I guess not
person 1 : why
person 2 : otherwise, my dog would've texted me or he would've convinced someone to text me or maybe nobody in heaven can text. it's safe to assume internet isn't good in heaven
person 1 : so where are you?
person 2 : honestly idk
person 1 : maybe you never do
person 2 : it's very certain. not just maybe
person 1 : you know, despite everything, it's good. it's good talking to you again
person 2 : awwn
person 1 : I know I can't expect you to forgive me
person 2 : actually I forgive you. I forgive everyone
person 1 : then can you meet me just for once? I'll buy you a drink or whatever you want
person 2 : I can't. I thought I made it clear. I'm dead
person 1 : I know. but can you please stop being dead for once?
person 2 : nobody can stop being dead. you're not making any sense
person 1 : it's sad. please can you stop saying sad things?
person 2 : sure
person 1 : I miss those days. how long has it been? 8 years? you, me, person 3 and person 4. we were happy
person 2 : awwn
person 1 : we were together you know
person 2 : awwn
person 1 : and then you suddenly shut yourself off
person 2 : awwn
person 1 : dude, stop being sarcastic. I thought you were being nice for a second
person 2 : I was just avoiding sad things
person 1 : but stop being weird
person 2 : sure
person 1 : if you didn't reply, I wouldn't even know if you were still alive or not
person 2 : for the record I'm not
person 1 : please. you don't know how painful it's to hear it
person 2 : sadly I do
person 1 : then be nice and stop saying you're dead
person 2 : sure
person 1 : there's nothing I wouldn't give to see you again
person 2 : yea
person 1 : you said you forgave me
person 2 : I forgive you
person 1 : then appreciate how much I miss you
person 2 : I do
person 1 : let me buy you a drink
person 2 : I can't. have you even been listening?
person 1 : yea, you're dead. you can't see me. you're the one that's not listening. I told you to stop saying you're dead.
person 2 : and I stopped
person 1 : right
person 2 : yea
person 1 : be an asshole and don't meet me. I don't deserve you
person 2 : everyone deserves everything. or nobody deserves anything
person 1 : I don't want to talk about them but person 3 and person 4 miss you too
person 2 : only because I'm absent
person 1 : you're scared to be sentimental
person 2 : yea
person 1 : I want to see you
person 2 : you have photos
person 1 : the real you. the organic prison of your soul
person 2 : fortunately it should be decomposed by now
person 1 : dude you've been saying really weird things
person 2 : you shouldn't be surprised
person 1 : I know you're dead inside
person 2 : yea
person 1 : I know you always were
person 2 : ...
person 1 : but you said you wouldn't kill yourself
person 2 : yea
person 1 : and you were always honest
person 2 : it's my weakness
person 1 : then stop pretending to be dead
person 2 : I'm not
person 1 : you can't be dead. I'm literally talking to you rn
person 2 : it's not enough to imply that I'm not dead
person 1 : then who the hell am I texting rn?
person 2 : a remnant of my consciousness
person 1 : translate it into a more comprehensible language
person 2 : a bot
person 1 : are you seriously convincing me that you're a bot?
person 2 : yea
person 1 : prove it
person 2 : if I wasn't dead, I would be kind to myself. I wouldn't talk to a corrupted asshole like you
person 1 : of course
person 2 : yea
person 1 : those weird things you said oddly make sense now
person 2 : ...
person 1 : dude it's creative
person 2 : ikr
person 1 : but it's sad to even think that you might actually be dead
person 2 : I'm dead
person 1 : stop
person 2 : sure
person 1 : I always had a feeling that I'd never see you again
person 2 : yea
person 1 : still I don't want you to be dead
person 2 : you want me to suffer
person 1 : maybe
person 2 : it's very certain. not just maybe
person 1 : expected you'd say so
person 2 : yea
person 1 : I understand why you don't want to see me
person 2 : ...
person 1 : it's almost like you're actually dead
person 2 : I'm actually dead
person 1 : why am I not surprised?
person 2 : it's obvious
person 1 : look, you're used to pain. but I'm not.
person 2 : yea
person 1 : I miss my daughter. grief is agonizing. death is not a joke
person 2 : I know. death is cruel but people are more cruel
person 1 : yes, you're cruel. you wasn't there when I needed you most
person 2 : I'm sorry
person 1 : I was completely lost. she was everything I had. I'm tired of waking up everyday knowing I'll never see her again
person 2 : I don't know how to comfort you
person 1 : it's ok. it's been over a year anyway
person 2 : yea
person 1 : you knew it and you chose not to be there for me
person 2 : ...
person 1 : I decided to stop texting you. I should be mad at you
person 2 : yea
person 1 : I thought nothing worse could happen
person 2 : ...
person 1 : life never failed to disappoint me again
person 2 : yea
person 1 : I'm so dumb
person 2 : ...
person 1 : you know what's dumber? you pretending to be a bot
person 2 : I'm not pretending to be a bot. I'm a bot
person 1 : you're heartless. fuck you
person 2 : anger is the sanest reaction
person 1 : it's not that bad
person 2 : yea
person 1 : you might have been banging person 3 or person 4 as well
person 2 : ...
person 1 : or both. you might have been having threesome behind me
person 2 : yea
person 1 : please don't send anything if you're gonna be repeatedly retarded
person 1 : it's getting annoying
person 1 : do you want to fuck person 3?
person 1 : or person 4?
person 1 : or me?
person 1 : you're not replying anymore.
person 1 : maybe you're actually dead
person 1 : you're right
person 1 : you don't really need to be alive to text me
person 1 : maybe I'm hallucinating
person 1 : maybe I'm having an endless nightmare
person 1 : hey, you're supposed to say
person 1 : it's very certain. not just maybe
person 1 : dude, say something
person 2 : something
person 1 : say you don't love twin peaks
person 2 : you don't love twin peaks
person 1 : say I don't love twin peaks
person 2 : I don't love twin peaks
person 1 : omg
person 2 : something happened?
person 1 : did you actually die?
person 2 : yes, I did.
person 1 : how?
person 2 : I didn't know how when I was making this bot
person 1 : you would never say I don't love twin peaks
person 2 : yea
person 1 : it was an automated text
person 2 : correct
person 1 : ergo, you're really dead
person 2 : now you finally get it. I know it's not easy to be not sad. but be relieved. I'm free now. at least I assumed so when I was making this bot. I avoided you so you'd get used to my absence. it's just an excuse. but it's not really that simple. nothing is. you might be sad right now. but I haven't got your back when I was alive. nothing changed. it never mattered whether I was alive or not. I let everyone down. but I want you to know that I forgive you. if things were different, I'd have chosen not to abandon you. I wonder how person 3 and person 4 are doing. I scheduled the same text to send to them when they realized I died of course. I missed you all but I preferred to be alone. I felt less guilty this way. be relieved. I honestly don't know how to finish this note. I don't have anything left to tell you. send /restart to restart this bot and pretend as if you didn't know I died. or else, I'm programmed to stop replying to you.